Father's Day

Today, is my first Father's Day, with out my dad. He died Dec. 20th 2007. I miss him terribly.
As for pain, I am still living in it. AP has helped, so I am praying for remission soon. I still haven't had a day without pain, but I went to Uvalde, TX with family, and other than a terrible sunburn, I really did ok. No migraine, only a few charley horses and some fatigue. Nothing compared to what would normally happen. I normally would have been bed ridden for days. Truly, it must be the minocin, because I tubed and kicked myself all over the pond, and am ok.
So, continue on as is and hope remission comes soon. Something to look forward to, finally!
Back to my dad. I keep seeing him lying on the floor, and I just miss him so. I wish he would send me a sign that he is ok. I just am so devastated. I mean, he always has been there for me. He wasn't an easy man and was surely crazy, but aren't we all a little crazy? I see him in the chair in the front yard, I see him in my van dancing a little jig. Such a huge hole he has left in my life.
Happy father's day, dad, wherever you are. I love you.